It's My Time

Laughter spills through the day
Wishing away the stars
Until they disappear
Like my hope that you’ll
Remember my name tomorrow
And my hope that I’ll
Be able to wipe the tears away
Quietly, I lie to myself again.

Just because you ruled my life
Doesn’t mean you control the stars
The prospect’s wearing thin
Maybe this time I’ll win
A chance to sing to you tonight
And wash away my daring fright
Just stop shaking your head
Forget disbelief because

It’s my time to remember
What I stand for. The bleary lights
Will keep my company when you won’t
And they’ll tell me why I can’t be yours.
Stop your pity commiserating cries
I know you’re lying to my face
And grinning away in her arms
Just let me wish away my hopes.

I’ve spent most my life dreaming
When forever was more than a word
I know you won’t promise to tell the truth
What do you owe me anyway
The vision of starry clouds is blurry
I swore I wouldn’t cry because
It’s really not worth it anymore
Even though I’ll have to wish once more

Memories spill through the day
No one can tell me exactly what to do
They’re not sure of themselves either
And I don’t want to hear it anymore
Because really, I’m better already
Can’t you see the light in my eyes
The light you used to tell me about
The light that’s only left in the sky

It’s my time to remember
What I can’t say. The fading glows
Will keep me cold when you won’t
And they’ll tell me how you can’t be mine.
Stop your apologies that you never knew
I know you’re forgiving my mistakes
And wishing you could fill my arms
I’ll never hope for a time like that.

Why is it that every time I look your
Way you tend to frown and smirk
I didn’t do anything to deserve that
so shrug and say sorry, you jerk.
Don’t pretend anymore
I know you recall those times
You told me you loved me
And said you’d always mean it

Now I mean it. Either smile or
Forget what you said because
I’m not hurting anymore
But then you could just turn around
And tell me it’s gonna be alright
And that I should just forget tonight
Even though I know we weren’t a match
It’s hard to push away the past

It’s my time to recall the words
I’m not sure I meant. The shooting sparkles
Have forgotten my whispered requests
Because as clear as the night, I know I’m wrong.
And why is this so confusing to me
Tell my how my friends lie to my face
And imagine how I feel being selfish
I think it’s time to wish for you.

It’s too late to forget
Too soon to remember
The night holds me now
And I couldn’t care less
What you would say to me
It’ll never console your pity
That nonexistent pity
Remorse is evanescent.

It’s my time to forget
What you never said. And I don’t
Need a man to hold my hand which
Never missed saving mine.
And I stop talking about what doesn’t hurt
And stop lying to the reflection I see
I’ll start being brave tomorrow
But I’ll still wish for you tonight.